Bossy’s Losing it: Redefining my WHY

Losing the baby weight this second time around has proven to be much harder than it was with Evelyn. I think with her I was just so eager to be skinny skinny skinny and I only had one baby’s schedule to deal with when trying to figure out meal planning, grocery shopping, and working out.

As you can tell from some of my past ‘Bossy’s Losing it’ posts, I have been back and forth this time. I’ll get some great motivation and lose a few pounds and then hit a bump in the road and end up right back where I started.

I’ve been thinking a lot lately about what I need to do and where I need to be mentally to overcome this. Through this whole journey, my exercise has stayed pretty consistent. I’m still training for my half marathon and it’s going really well! The most I’ve run so far is 11 miles and it was hard but I did it. I’m feeling really good about my progress. The part that I can’t keep up with is what I’m eating.

I’ve been having a rough time with depression lately (another story for another time) and my go to is always food as a comfort. I’ve reached a point in my weight loss where I look good enough. And between my bad eating habits and my consistent exercise, I’ve been able to maintain a weight that’s about 10 lbs more than would be ideal.

So why is it so much harder this time? Why am I so okay with looking good enough? Why can’t I get my head back to where it was after I had Evelyn and stay on the track to weight loss success?

Ultimately it comes down to my WHY. Why am I losing weight? What is my motivation? For so long it was, “I want to look hot” “I want to rock a bikini” “I want people to be so impressed by how great I look” “I want to wear this type of outfit”. That may have worked when I lost weight the first time, but that kind of superficial thinking is obviously not sustainable. Wanting to look good can only get me so far.

So I’ve been trying to redefine my why. It can’t be all about looks because I look good enough. It can’t be based on what other people will think of me because doing something this hard for someone else won’t be worth it. I have to look past the initial weight loss. I have to think in the long term.

Redefining my WHY

This journey is becoming less about making the number on the scale go down, and more about developing a healthy lifestyle. I don’t want my entire life to be an inner struggle about what I can and can’t eat. I wan’t to develop a healthy relationship with food. I want to fuel my body for the kind of activities I enjoy. I want to stop eating so much that I feel sick. I want the things that I eat to give me energy and make me feel good, not guilty and depressed. I don’t want to be ruled by my cravings. I want to have the self discipline to tell my body what it wants, and not listen to the mindless cravings.

This is my new why. In 25 years, when my metabolism slows down, I want to have already overcome this bad eating habits and be able to easily maintain a healthy lifestyle. I don’t want to gain 40 lbs every time I’m pregnant because giving into my pregnancy cravings makes me happy. I’m prepared to treat my body like a two year old. Just because my daughter wants chocolate instead of a healthy lunch doesn’t mean I give it to her. I have to treat myself the same way. Just because my body wants something, doesn’t mean I’ll give in. It’s high time I learn some self discipline and control. Mind over matter.

 

So here we go. This journey isn’t over, and I don’t expect it really ever will be. Developing a healthy lifestyle and breaking a ton of bad habits won’t be easy, but I know it will be worth it in the end.

Vacation part 2: Disneyland

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I can’t even tell you how I giddy I was about going to Disneyland. Like seriously giddy. Disneyland and Disney World even more so, are like a second home to me and I love the magic atmosphere of it all. I couldn’t wait to share it with Evelyn. She was only 10 months old on our first trip so all the magic kind of went over her head. But this time at 2 and a half she would be the perfect age to experience the magic in full effect.

As it turns out, Disneyland can still be quite overwhelming for a two and a half year old. If you ask her she’ll tell you all about the scary pirate ride (Pirates of the Caribbean), the scary house ride (the haunted mansion), the scary car ride (Mr Toad’s Wild Ride), if you ask how she liked the Winnie the Pooh or Ariel rides she’ll tell you, “Yeah, but they were a little bit scary.”

But her favorite ride by far was “the horses” AKA The carousel. Yes that’s right, a ride that you can find in most malls, was my daughter’s favorite at Disneyland.

Anywho, these pictures will tell the story of our trip much better than I ever could, Enjoy!

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^^Kisses for Minnie

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^^Showin’ off her shoes

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^^Hanging out in Mickey’s house

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^^Costume change number 1

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^^All the Pooh characters were just enamored by Evelyn. They each walked her from one character to the next and Rabbit just refused to let her go.

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^^She sang Pooh ‘Little Black Raincloud, and he even shared some honey with her.

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^^Costume change #3

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^^So excited to ride the horsies!!

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^^Homemade t shirts

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Vacation Part 1: Arizona

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^^New hair, fresh spray tan, ready for vacay

Mmm Vacation. I was looking forward to this for like a month. So ready for the warmth of Arizona, so ready to just chill and relax and let family play with my babies.

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^^What a good husband!

Our flight left in the afternoon and it was only like an hour so there was really no chance of either kid sleeping. But Chris was an angel and let me sit all by myself in the back of the plane while he took care of BOTH kids. I think it was the most relaxing flight I’ve ever had in my whole life. Seriously magical.

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^^Look how relaxed I am on the flight all by myself!

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^^Babies require a lot of crap

We flew in with Chris’ little sister Caitlin who Evelyn is seriously in love with so that was nice too. The whole reason for the trip was for Chris’ brother’s wedding. So once in town, Caitlin and I headed out to get a gift for the bridal shower that night. We picked something super boring off the registry: sheets, and then something that we thought would make a nice companion gift, lingerie. Obvs.

The funny thing is that since their registry was at Target, everyone who decided to also get the bride lingerie ended up getting her the exact same thing. Dumb Target, only having one bridal worthy type of lingerie. At least that way she can make returns and pick out exactly what she wants.

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The next day I went for a brisk 5 mile run (half marathon here I come) and in return got a massive blister just in time for the wedding on Saturday. So..that was great.

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^^Hugest blister EVER!

I set up a party with all the bridesmaids to do matching Jamberry nails for the wedding so we did that on Friday afternoon. Then Friday evening, the boys went out for a “bachelor party” (dinner and laser tag) and I went out with the bride and a couple of Chris’ sisters  for dinner. It was a lot of fun. We spent the whole time making the bride feel super awkward by talking about sex. But I mean really…what else were we gonna talk about the night before the wedding??

The morning of the wedding, Chris’ stepmom set up a little easter egg hunt for the kids. Evelyn LOVED getting two Easters.

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The wedding was just beautiful. Evelyn loved running around outside the temple while everyone was waiting for the bride and groom to emerge. But she was not about to let the bride steal the show.

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^^Waiting for the bride and groom is hard.

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^^”Why is everyone looking at the bride…Can’t they see I’m right here?”

At one point I lost track of her and saw her little shoes peeking out from behind a pillar. She was playing doctor with Chris’ sister and having surgery done on her knee. Naturally.

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I even managed to hobble around in my heels with my blister becoming more and more painful. Pain is beauty my friend.

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I take too many selfies, true or false? Trick Question! There’s no such thing.

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^^I seriously love this picture. Chris with his baby brother, newly married and ready to take on life.

Evelyn spent the reception shoving cupcakes into her face and dancing like a maniac. She is seriously so hilarious.

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Sunday, we skipped church and went to visit my Grandma and Aunt where Evelyn got yet another Easter surprise. I guess it’s understandable that people want to spoil such a cute little girl. By now she’s a pro at opening gifts.

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^^Great Grammy’s house is the best!

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^^Everyone loves goldfish right

On Monday we grabbed a rental car and made the trek to California for our Disneyland Adventure….

 

To be continued.

Jamberry Bridal party

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^^She’s wearing gold sparkle with chantilly over the top on the ring finger and thumb.

When Chris’ brother got married, I decided to give the bride an early wedding present and offer to do her nails for the big day. She was so excited to have Jamberry nails for her wedding and took advantage of a super classy design.

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^^They’re wearing boysenberry with gold sparkle accent and the bridesmaid is gold sparkle with boysenberry accent.

Her bridal party decided to get in on the action and have matching nails for the big day! The pictures looked so great, especially the close ups of their bouquets. All those matching nails..I can’t even handle it! Since each sheet of wraps comes with enough for two manis and two pedis, all the bridesmaids could share and it was only about $6 each.

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^^Everyone had their own bag with everything they needed to get the perfect Jamberry application.

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^^Everyone gets their wraps, application tools, and a catalog

I did a party the day before the wedding to help all the girls get their jams on. The party was so fun! I had a great time getting to know all the bridesmaids. Give me a good girls night any day! It was a great chance for them all to have a relaxing afternoon together the day before the wedding. Sometimes weddings can be a big ol’ ball of stress for everyone who is working to make it perfect and a little spa party in the middle of it all is a nice pampering distraction.

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^^boysenberry and gold sparkle

The bride’s nails were perfect for all those close up ring shots that will be framed on her wall and in photo albums for the rest of forever.

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^^Gold Sparkle and Chantilly

Are you planning a wedding or event where to you want to have matching nails without breaking the bank? Jamberry has so many options to choose from and the best news is, I’ll come help you get a perfect application. These can be great for a girls night in, spa night, right before a vacation, you name it. Gorgeous nails are appropriate for every occasion.

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^^Boysenberry and ombre lotus accent

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^^Sisters of the Groom wearing boysenberry and ombre lotus

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^^Groom’s sister rocking plum lotus from the Jamberry junior collection

You can view all the nail wrap designs online here. Email me to place your joint order and book a party.

An Early Easter

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^^Notice the super cool pink hair

I knew we would be out of town for Easter and since I didn’t want to fill our suitcases with easter eggs, we celebrated Easter a week early. I was on such a “buy all the Disney souvenirs” kick that I already had a bunch of gifts to choose from to give Evelyn.

One of the best parts about having kids is reliving my childhood and buying toys that I’d like for myself. I’m not really sure why I fell in love with tsum tsums, but I did and I can’t seem to stop buying them. The good news is, they are the perfect size and shape to fit in extra large easter eggs!

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It was kind of fun to have some little eggs filled with candy and some special surprise eggs with tsum tsums inside. I loved watching Evelyn find them. Naturally she wanted to open each one after she found it, but we were somehow able to convince her to wait until she found all of them.

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I think Chris and I had more fun hiding eggs and watching Evelyn find them than she actually had finding them. All in all it was fun day and I think Evelyn is definitely a fan of Easter now.

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She insisted on hunting for eggs with her butterfly net instead of her easter basket.

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L-R Roo, Lumpy (heffalump from Pooh), Anna, Pooh, Elsa, Tigger, Christopher Robin, Christof, Sven, Piglet.

 

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Remi was happy to chew on eggs.

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^^Since it wasn’t actually Easter, I didn’t put the kids in their Easter outfits, and instead put Evelyn in this cute hand-me-down from her Aunt Lindsey. Lindsey actually happened to wear this dress to our wedding, so naturally I had her remake the photo for a cute throwback.

5 Beauty products I’m Obsessing Over

Being a girl is so great sometimes. Sometimes it sucks, but it can be super awesome too. Like one of my favorite parts is getting to get all dolled up and pamper myself. I just love products. I’m a total product person (I even like the word. Weird or no?)

So today I thought I’d share with you some of my favorites, or to clarify:

5 Beauty Products I’m Totally Obsessing Over

001 Jamberry nail wraps


 You guys, these things are incredible. If you follow me on social media, you’ve probably seen my post pictures of my many manicures. I love having a great looking mani but don’t really have time or money to go get my nails done. When I try to do it myself with polish, it takes forever and I end up smudging it before it dries or it starts chipping within a couple days.

Jamberry nail wraps don’t have to dry, don’t chip and can be done without a steady hand (Not like painting with your non-dominant hand). They’re heat and pressure activated and last for two whole weeks while staying flawless!


 I’m so obsessed! I was buying so many of them that I decided to bite the bullet and join the company as a consultant to save a few extra bucks. So if you wanna try them out, let me know!

002 Purple Shampoo

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This past fall I went super blonde, toned white. I really wanted it to look icey and get rid of those brass yellow tones. This shampoo does the trick like nobody’s business. Every time I use it, my hair looks like I’ve just gotten the color redone. I don’t know if the brand really matters here, I got the generic version of shimmer lights and it’s fabulous.

003 Revlon Colorstay Whipped foundation

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I’m a drugstore foundation girl all the way and this stuff is the best I’ve ever found. My complexion isn’t wonderful and this foundation has full coverage. I put it on with an urban decay foundation brush that just buffs it onto my skin and it stays looking smooth and perfect all day long.

The pot runs out faster than a liquid foundation but since I’m only paying a drugstore price for it, I don’t even mind.

004 Maybelline the Falisies Push Up Drama Mascara

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Once again with the drugstore products, I know, but seriously. My all time favorite mascara is Perversion by Urban Decay but at $25 a pop it’s not a frequent splurge. This mascara rivals Perversion and, dare I say, I almost like it better. It seriously makes my eyelashes look like falsies which is way easier than actually putting falsies on.

005 Big Sexy Hair Powder Play

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This stuff is incredible. I have really fine hair that doesn’t really like to do volume but just a couple shakes of this and I look like I’ve just had a professional blow out. It may seem a tad pricey but a little goes a long way! I’ve been using the same one for almost two years and it’s not showing signs of running out yet.

You just pull up a section of hair by your part, sprinkle some on, use your fingertips to rub it in and VOILA! It’s some kind of magic forreal. I’m obsessed. I especially love using it in between days that I wash my hair. It helps revive it and hide a little greasiness, although it is NOT a dry shampoo.

 

There you have it! Some of my favorite products right now. What are you loving that I should try? I’m always open to suggestions.

{Baby Boy Update} 6 months old


So keeping up with monthly updates while having two kids is exponentially more difficult than when I had one. Just saying.

Movement


Remi boy turned 6 months old on Christmas! Chris was convinced that he would be crawling by then and while he isn’t full on crawling, he’s doing a kind of army crawl thing which gets him from point A to point B. He’ll be real crawling soon though. He gets on his hands and knees and rocks back and forth. He’s moving way more, way faster than Evelyn ever did.

  
He can totally sit up on his own like a champ.  When he doesn’t feel like army crawling he just rolls everywhere. Like seriously all over the floor! I think it’s time to start baby proofing!

Sleeping


Remington will sleep well for like a week and then the rest of the month he’ll be up 3 or 4 times. There really is no normal for him. I just put him in bed with me to nurse him though, so for the most part I don’t really have to wake up. We moved him out of our room and into his crib in Evelyn’s room a couple months ago. Evelyn does great at sleeping through his cries in the middle of the night.

He takes roughly three naps a day in varying length. Usually one of his naps is around the same time as Evelyn’s nap, so I get a small break from both kids (for like 30 minutes. At least it’s something).

Eating


6 months means starting solids! We started him on baby oatmeal and after a few eating sessions complete with full body shudders, he’s finally getting used to the taste and texture and just laps it up.

He reaches with his hands and head towards the spoon which makes for a messy experience but super cute all the same.

Play


 This little boy loves to coo and trill his lips. He will crack up if you tickle him or make faces at him. And seriously, his laugh is the cutest thing. He loves stealing Evelyn’s toys and she doesn’t love that so much. She’s already mastered the, “He’s touching me!”

I don’t think he has a favorite toy but without fail he will reach for an iphone if it’s anywhere near him. I wouldn’t be surprised if he’s figured out my passcode already.

 

10 Weird New Year’s Superstitions

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We all know that we want to give someone a kiss as the clock strikes midnight and the calendars roll over to January…but do you know why?

Snopes.com lists several New Year’s Superstitions and why people do them, but I’ve summarized them here for you. I’m so nice.

001 The Midnight Kiss

Kissing a loved one on midnight is not only a way to celebrate together, but it also ensures the affection between you will continue for the next 12 months. Failing to have that midnight kiss will start a year of coldness.

002 A Handsome Man will come a Knocking

The first person who comes into your house after the stroke of midnight will be reflective of the kind of year you’ll have. Naturally you’re gonna want that person to be hot..er uh..handsome.

“Ideally, he should be dark-haired, tall, and good-looking, and it would be even better if he came bearing certain small gifts such as a lump of coal, a silver coin, a bit of bread, a sprig of evergreen, and some salt.” Obvi.

Also, make sure your handsome fella is actually a fella. A woman would bring disaster on your household. It’s recommended that you aim a gun at them to ward them off lest they come into your house before a man does. You guys..I’m not making this up.

Likewise a blonde or redhead man simply will not do unless you want bad luck for the upcoming year.

“First footers must not be cross-eyed or have flat feet or eyebrows that meet in the middle.” Well that goes without saying.

Once your handsome man drops off his gifts he has to make his way through the house and leave through a different door. No one else can leave the house until the handsome man (also known as a first footer) enters. The first movement across the threshold of your home must be entering and not leaving. Which brings us to…

003 Nothing leaves the house

Like nothing…absolutely NOTHING can leave the house on New Years Day. Not even garbage. If you have deliveries to make, put them in the car before the stroke of midnight. Don’t even think about shaking out a rug or anything else for that matter.

The year must begin by something being added to the home before anything is subtracted from it. It is indicative of the year ahead of you.

Someone who is celebrating all alone could put a basket of treats on his front porch, right outside the door with a string tied to it and after midnight pull the basket in by the string, careful not to reach out and grab the basket.

004 Lucky Food

If you want luck in the new year, make sure black eyed peas and some kind of green something are on the menu. Other acceptable foods are pork, lentil soup (lentils look like coins which equal financial goodness. duh.) and sauerkraut (mainly because it goes well with pork apparently).

Stay far away from poultry of any kind. Birds scratch at the ground which symbolizes the eater scratching for money the whole rest of the year. Ain’t nobody got time for that.

005 Work

Do a little bit of work similar to your career on New Year’s day and be successful at it BUT DON’T do too much because that’s bad luck.

Also stay away from doing laundry because that means that someone close to you could wash away (i.e. die) in the coming months. And to be safe you probably should do the dishes either.

006 New Threads

Wear new clothes on Jan 1 to make it more likely that you’ll receive more new clothes in the coming year. Done and done.

007 Financial Luck

Don’t pay any debts or give out loans on new years day lest you want to be paying them all the year long.

008 Breaking something

Breaking anything encourages wreckage to be apart of your new year. No one wants wreckage. Oh and crying…not a good idea. Unless you want to be sad for the next 12 months.

009 Stock up

Go out and do all your grocery shopping TODAY! Any bare cupboards come January 1 will be a symbol of how they will look for the whole year.

010 Out with a bang

Once the clock strikes midnight, all the doors in the house must be opened to let the old year out. Also it’s important to be as loud as humanly possible to scare away the evil spirits…so..yeah.

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It’s not to late. You can still run to the store for some black eyed peas and new clothes and take out all the garbage before midnight. But I hope you’ve found your handsome man already. Those can be hard to come by.

 

Make & keep your new year’s resolutions! Free Printable!

It’s that time of year again when we all take a step back and figure out what we want to do differently in the coming year. We take this chance for a fresh start to examine our lives and make changes for the better. We call them New Year’s Resolutions which is a fitting name since most of us forget about them by Valentine’s Day. Maybe a better name to encourage staying on track would be “Resolutions for the coming year” or even better “Goals”.

You can make goals for anything during any time of the year, and really you should edit your goals often. If you only make goals once a year, it’s more likely that you’ll only think about them once a year. Revisiting them and editing them to fit our current situation will keep them more relevant.

However, since you’re most likely thinking about resolutions for the coming year now, I wanted to share with you a great tool to coming up with realistic goals and staying on track until December of 2016.

New Year’s Resolutions Workbook

I made this little workbook for myself as a way to figure out what my goals actually are and come up with a manageable plan to keep up with them all year long.

First: Broaden your goals.

On the first page you try and broaden your goal to the widest encompassing, least specific thing. At first glance this goal might seem unattainable. But getting it as broad as possible makes it easier to refine it next.

For example:

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Second: Refine your goals.

Now that you have a broad idea of what you want to accomplish in the new year, take it down a few notches and refine it to something you can realistically accomplish. On the goals by month page, you can break a goal like “Be healthier” down into 12 steps to get there.

For example:

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Third: Plan the details.

So to be healthier in January, you’re going to exercise more. Great. Now plan what that looks like on a weekly and daily scale. Maybe weekly you’ll exercise 5 days. On the daily you might plan a certain time of day to get that done.

For example:

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Fourth: Post Prominently.

Now that you’ve gone through the little workbook exercises and figured out what your goals are and how you’re going to achieve them over the next 12 months, write it out concisely on one page and post it somewhere you’ll see it everyday. I printed this page out twice. One to go inside my workbook and one to hang up next to my calendar to keep me on track.

For example:

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Now it’s your turn!

You can control your New Year’s Resolutions by planning out how you’re going to accomplish them. There’s no reason to give up by February. Saying, “I’m going to be healthier this year” isn’t very effective when you don’t have a plan to get to that healthier you. Or when you have no set idea of what a healthier you looks like.

Click on these images to download them, then you can print them as is or put them in a word document to make sure you have the sizing the way you want it and then print them out. I printed pages 2-5, double sided, then hole punched it and used brads to keep it together. (But remember to print out page 5 twice, one for the workbook, one to hang up.)

Then it’s as easy as filling it out and hanging the last page up somewhere prominent.

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Bossy’s Losing it Week 20: Sugar Fast Results

Apparently it’s either feast or famine with blog posts around these parts. But you know how it goes. Things get crazy around the holidays.

In case you are wondering the sugar fast went surprisingly well. The first 3 days were pretty miserable. I wanted ALL THE SUGAR. But around day 4, every time that craving came around I immediately remembered that I’m not eating sugar right now. The mantra I kept repeating was, “I can have sugar, I just don’t want sugar.”

Thanksgiving was my first day back on sugar and I was really conservative considering we had cinnamon rolls, candied yams, and two kinds of pie. BUT it only took a little over a week for me to just swing right back into my sugar eating habits.

I lost nearly 2 pounds the week of Thanksgiving and I attribute that to my successful sugar fast. And while the fast did help me during Thanksgiving and a few days afterwards, it’s long term effects were not as successful as I had hoped. Unfortunately, that outcome is what kept me from doing another sugar fast before Christmas. I kind of wish I had though. This week before Christmas I’ve kind of been losing control in terms of sugar consumption and that is the one huge thing that the fast did for me.

It gave me the feeling of control. I didn’t feel controlled by my sugar craving, I controlled it and I loved that. I never wondered if I’d be able to say no to the sugary treats that I didn’t even love that much in the first place, there was no question, I just wasn’t eating sugar.

I think I’d like to do another sugar fast and approach the aftermath differently. Maybe I’ll ease back into it and always keep control by always having a limit. For instance, when I start eating sugar again it will only be one sugar-y type something a day or every other day or something like that.

Things in weight loss land have gone a little down hill since my Thanksgiving success. It’s like I planned so much to not go overboard during Thanksgiving that afterwards I just lost it. I haven’t gained any but my loss hasn’t been too big either.

I’m pretty sure that’s because I’m building so much muscle in these weight lifting classes I’m doing at the gym (Power Pump and X Fusion). One week I was sure I had gained 5 lbs from all the Nutella I had consumed but was surprised to find out that I lost .2. Not huge, but better than gaining. I really think it’s because muscle helps you constantly burn more calories. amiright?? (I’m no health guru here…just making guesses.)

Maybe after the holidays I’ll join the rest of the free world and do some kind of sugar or juice fast or something to try and get in gear for New Year’s health resolutions. Or maybe I’ll just start tracking my points again. That would be a good idea too.

I haven’t been to weight watchers in a couple weeks because holidays got me feelin like I’ve gained back everything I’ve ever lost and I’m not really ready for that harsh reality. But next week I start training for my half marathon so I’m hoping that will give me the motivation I need to get back on track.

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Total Weight Loss: -23.8lbs